Suzannah's Blog

I would say I personally do not like rap, it makes me anxious, the dialect and speed as which they are speaking I can't understand. I can understand how people like that kind of music I just cant get into it. I feel like I try to listen to it and like it but it goes too fast for my liking. its not that it is bad music, I personally just dont like it so much. 

An album I like is Noah Kahan's Stick Season Album, his music sticks with me and means a lot to me. it's also just really good music I like the vibe of it and most if not all of his songs have important meaning to me. I think all of his music is just very good. 

 to get my paper ready by Wednesday i am going to polish my paper,  i will listen to the peer review and take their suggestions into consideration. i feel like i over explain and talk too much so i am going to reread my paper and see if i have things that i can shorten for it to make sense because i just love to talk and ramble which is a big problem with most of my papers i talk too much. I'm going to look at my grammar and formatting as well and make sure everything looks right, grammar is definitely something i struggle with so I'm going to make sure i have everything spelled correctly. 

 A time I was made aware of social class was in elementary school. on Friday's kids who were in lower income families would get food sent home with them, i was one of those people. I remember talking to a friend about it and they said they don't get the food sent home with them on Fridays. I thought everyone did, i went home and talked to my parents about it, they explained to me that some people like us needed extra help. that was the first time i realized not everyone's situation was the same. visiting friends' houses who were middle class also made me aware of those differences. 

 when i think of a journey my mind does go to a physical location. instead, I think of the long journey i have had with my anxiety. for years I felt like i had an invisible weight I carried everywhere with me, it shows up in ways i can't control, racing heart, shaky hands, spiraling thoughts sometimes it would last for hours.  this journey has shown me how strong i can be I've learned to ask for help, to lean on support systems, and to use coping strategies to bring me back. every time i make it to the other side of a tough moment i prove to myself that I can keep going  i still struggle with anxiety today, it's a journey i am still on but I see my journey not as something that will come to an end but as a path i will forever walk with and that's ok. 

Something Interesting that happened in a car  Something interesting that happened in a car was we were getting a new car and had to drive about three hours to pick it up. We were worried about this new car and if it would make it back ok because it needed fixing but our completely ok car broke down out of nowhere, we left it on the side of the road after trying to fix it for hours. We had to rent out a truck to come back and get it the next day. We spent the day trying to fix it though, we didn’t just leave it we tried everything we could. It went to the shop the next day and is still in the shop currently. I just find it interesting that we were on our way to get a new car, nervous about it breaking down and a perfect healthy car breaks down.

A time a relative/friend surprised me was actually recently, I struggle with anxiety and panic attacks. My family hasn't always been mental health friendly, when having a bad panic attack i took a chance and called my stepdad, i wasnt really sure if it was going to help because normally talking to him about anything is a struggle. to my suprise he was very understanding and open about mental health and exaplained to me he also struggled with panic attacks like mine. it suprised me becasuse we have never had a conversation like that before. it just suprised me because I have never had such an open an honest conversation with him before.